It felt like a trap. The grass is always greener trap. As soon as I went back to work I wanted to be home with the kids. But at the same time, I liked the independence, the adult conversation, the sense of accomplishment and the money.
I lived with a feeling of never doing anything well. I felt I was failing in one area while succeeded in another. If I did well at my job, my kids were picked up late, I fed them fast food and felt out of control. If I felt I did well as a mom, I wasn’t making my goals at work. Personally, I couldn’t get the balance and I wasn’t happy.